…bollywood actress Aishwariya Rai in “Hum Dil De Chuke Sanam” when Salman Khan is coming to learn classical music from her father and she has to give her room away to the house guest Salman Khan as it is the best room in the whole house. She is so irritated by the decsion and their expected house guest that she angry writes about him in her diary hoping he would get lost in the dessert on the way to their haveli, will be met by a sandstorm and bit by scorpios etc. just so she would not need to give her room.
This post is totally meaningsless and just a rant because I NEED to get this off my heart and mind so I’m writing it here. Call me childish, hysterical or a drama queen and it would not even bother me cause i might be all that or just weird…?
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It was saturday and I had a really relaxing day with my family and the evening went with watching TV. I got up around 1.30ish and went to my room. There was pretty light outside already and I though of that I might should have taken a walk at this moment since there won’t be anyone else outside beside me. ( I like taking walks at night cuz there is only silence and me) I stopped myself thinking the thought and instead reminded myself of brushing my teeth before going to sleep. So I did.
I returned to my room, and found my mobile to send a text message to someone special where i wrote “Good night 
” and then I put my phone back on the table next to my bed. I then reached for my mp3-player since that has become a rutine – listening to some songs before I’m gone. I didn’t had the chance to push the play button before my phone started to play my ringtone “Rush by Veronica” [Yeah, I'm such a pendu or whatever you want to call me, I like the start on the tune so it's my ringtone]. I picked it up and bearly saw the screen lightning: Anonymous caller ID and I managed to say “Hello”. Silence filled the conversation and in my mind I was thinking who would call me at this time without showing their number on the screen. Giving it yet another try I managed to say another “Hello” and this time I got an answer. The voice was unknown and it was a male, and I could hear as if he was in his car, it sounded much like he was driving.
This time I asked him whatever that came to my mind and I started to notice that I felt a bit nervous. “Who are you?” I asked him twice before I got an answer. “Aapka dost/ Your friend” and then it some how got me pissed. You’re calling me 2 in the morning, you’re hiding behind this anonymous ID and when I ask you one simple question you reply with “Aapka dost”, that really irritated me so I just disconnected the call. And switched my phone to silent so I would not need to hear if he called me up again. (they usually do that; know that by experience since I’ve had to deal with something like this earlier but that was much more disturbing which lead me to change my number and dealing with the police to regain my privacy). I cannot understand how he managed to get my number, and I suspect he is the one who called me earlier this year but then I didn’t pick up.
I’ve had 4 years of peace and now the same thing has started all over again, I cannot understand how he managed to find me and my number. It just gets me mad and so afraid because I’ve never given out my number to anyone and since last incident I was promised to have a “secret number” and it worked till now.
I hate this person who ruined my night and my day. I wish you could have the currage enough to at least tell me who the hell you are so I can at least report you to the police. Kamine!!!! Mood kharab kar diya! Maine tumhara kya bighara hai jo tum mujhe aise pareshan kar rahe ho??? Aaarghh…I cannot find any bad words to call you!!!!!!!! I HATE YOU WHOEVER YOU ARE!!!!!
Pheeew! Now i’ve said it all! What a relief!
Honestly, the reason for not being active updating my blog any longer is because I simply did’nt want to write anything. I feel like I go on and on renting, whining how hard life is and how everything sucks! It is somehow true but only till an extend, the rest is actually that i am pretty much a bubbly person. I’m not THAT much depressed even though it can seem like that from my post because i have every reason for being happy and Allah ji have given me soo much!!
I’m just boring not severe depressed and that’s all; really just ask anyone else of my close friends. I think I need to loosen up sometimes because I take things way too seriously. I spend too much time online doing absolutely nothing, and it’s about time to find some friends otherwise I would stay this “stupid-boring-aunty-like- person” for ever. You might know this already; once your stuck you cannot really get out of it, and I dont want to turn into a person without any personality nor in$terests when she is only 22 years old!
I want the 23rd year of my life to be much better and a lot more fun and I am promising myself this already even though I don’t have birthday untill october so I can prepare my mind for the coming changes.
I am really not a fan of changes, not the small one and specially not the big ones
So from this very moment I am allowing myself to be me – the real me and hopefully my blog will be updated more frequently than earlier.
Ciao till next time!
Teri Yaad – Jal
Teri yaad aye jab mujhko
Main laut aon ga
Woh bheegi raat aur barish bhoonday
Main bheeg jaon ga
Faaslay simat na sakay
Raastey jo mit na sakay
In faaslon ko simatna hai
In raaston pay chalna hai
Yeh dil ki baat koi janay na janay
Main keh jaon ga
Woh tere saath guzaray lamhay
Na bhool paon ga
Jo sapnay sajaye mil ke
Khushi ke pal bitaye mil ke
Kya paaya main ne
Kya khoya
Kab jaga hoon mein
Kab soya
Teri har baat rulaye jab mujhko
Mein kho jaon ga
Woh teri chahat sataye jab mujhko
Mein dol jaon ga
Dedicated to all lovers out there, including myself…i just love this song! With lyrics because I love to sing along with most of my favourite songs! 
Humain Itna Pyar – [Boondh] by Jal
Humein itna pyar na karo ke hum marr jaaye,
Humein itna tanha na karo ke jee na paaye…
Koi dil ka qaraar jaane na
Koi mann ki yeh baat bataye na,
Koi aankhoon hi aankhoon mein keh de yeh baat…
Chal chale uss paar jahaan koi na ho,
Sab khushiyaan ho paas sitam na ho,
Aur sitaaron se karte rahein hum baat…
Kya yehi hai khata pyar maine kiya,
ab yun sataaon o mere piya..
Tu hi mera dildar tu dil ka qaraar,
Nahi iss baat se mujhe koi inkaar…
Kabhi kabhi tum yaad aate ho,
To dil bhar aaye…
Yeh kaisa hai khumaar,
Jo kam na ho aur badhta jaaye…
Dekha hai har mausam teri aankhon mein
Beeta hai har lamha teri saanson mein,
Yeh hai saansein to teri amaanat hai…
Kuchh ajab hai yeh haal mere seene mein
haan par sur hai aur taal mere jeevan mein,
Bass isi jeevan se hai mujhe thoda pyar…
Teri aahat hai sarsarahat hai,
kuchh aur nahi yeh chahat hain…
Nainoon se nainoon ko tak ke phir
tumhein aankhein churane ki aadat hain…
Humain itna pyar na karo ke hum marr jaaye,
Humain itna tanha na karo ke jee na paaye…
Humain itna pyar na karo ke hum marr jaaye,
Humain itna tanha na karo ke jee na paaye…
